Back from Worldcon

*whew* It was a fun con but now back to RL:(. I have to get up and go back to work tomorrow. So I should get to sleep but I checked e-mail and here and stuff and decided to do a quick post just to say I'm here.

Damn, some people on here are just plain confusing.

Well, I better get to bed.

Bizzare

It's very weird having an indirect remote pseudo-conversation over the web with someone who otherwise doesn't seem to be talking to you.

*shrug*

Random Worldcon thoughts part 1

Well, it's getting late but I figured I'd post a few things about the trip.

I had a few people ask me if I'd sold anything else or if I was writing. It was enough that I'm starting to become determined to start writing again! I just ordered a few writing/creativity and other useful books from half.com and even used the 3 free month subscriptions they offered afterward to get subscriptions to (shudder) Writer's Digest (O.K., maybe it's not so bad if I can learn something from it;). I'll just ignore anything aimed at newbies), and a couple others that may help get ideas: Archeology and Popular Science (it was that or Discover). Now all I need is some ideas to actually write. *sigh* I'm way out of practice. Let's hope this stuff helps.

I did get to see some of a friend's writing, and it was really good:).

Boston won the 2004 bid. YAY! I don't have to go back to the (shudder) South for a Worldcon. And there was much rejoicing. Charlotte apparently pissed off a lot of people.

My parents came down from NY while I was there. They even managed to find me a dress for my cousin's wedding that my mother and I BOTH liked. My mother will have to get a jacket to wear over it but I REALLY like the way it fits me (which is weird when it's a size that should really be too big for me, but I guess that's why I need to lose weight:(.) in fact we'd already bought another dress for the wedding but I suspect the other one will be used for something else. My mother took both back to NY so I'd have less to drag back to CA with me.

Saturday night I was getting ready for the parties and was just going to wear a nicer shirt with my jeans, but eventually my mother's "Oh, it's saturday night you should get dressed up" wore me down and I put on one of my dresses, a short leopard print dress. But then after they left I went to a couple of parties and suddenly got really self conscious and realized I REALLY REALLY REALLY didn't want to deal with anyone trying to hit on me. Being a science fiction convention this could be a problem:(. So I rushed through all the parties looking for my friend, thinking I could stick to him and that would help (and besides, if anyone should be seeing me in that dress I'd rather it be him anyway;). And he's the last person likely to really hit on me right now.) It didn't help when some guy wanted to take my picture and I said I was looking for someone he said "Well, you found me!" :P I immediately informed him it was a specific person I was looking for.

I eventually did find my friend at least. When I told him I didn't want to go alone to parties dressed like that he said I might get hit on and I said that would be a bad thing and he laughed and said it wouldn't and I told him that in general having guys I'm not interested in hit on me only tends to annoy the hell out of me. And it's true. Since I was young I've never dealt too well with anyone I wasn't already interested in showing interest in me. It goes all the way back to a time when I was a Counselor In Training at a camp and the music instructor liked me and I wouldn't go near him.

Right now especially the very thought of being hit on seems completely revolting to me for some reason. Maybe it's because I really don't want to get involved with anyone. I guess I'm now in the same position as my friend. There are way too many things I need to do (cram as much programming into my head as possible, catch up on e-mail, start writing again, get back in touch with my friends on Dueling Modems and sff-net, get into better shape with the pool/jacuzzi/gym here, etc.) that the last thing I need is another time sink.

This is why I recently gave up FurryMUCK. It's WAY too much of a distraction and I'm not really getting much out of it anymore. And the people I do want to talk to there I can always reach in other ways. I don't need to spend several hours a day trying to keep up on conversations when I really have a lot more that I need to concentrate on.

Well, back to Worldcon, it was really great to get back to a Northeast Worldcon and see a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while. A couple of people didn't seem to talk to me much. Maybe they were busy. I decided I'm not worrying about anything from the past because I've changed so much that any thing from the past that might have been a problem is totally invalid by now. It's old news. There were a couple of people I had been worried about running into but by the end of the con I realized I hadn't even thought about them much less seen them, and I had thought they'd be there. But there were other people I was really happy to see and who were even happy to see me. it was nice. Going back to RL sucks but at least there's still LASFS.

Well, enough for now. Maybe I'll post more again but it's late and I'm jet-lagged. But I figure if I need to start writing again I might as well practice here.